Melissa Johns says she 'cried for days' when intimate photos of her were leaked

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Coronation Street’s Melissa Johns discussed the horrifying incident of when her intimate photos were leaked online during Friday’s Loose Women. 

The soap star, 32, – who was born with one arm – said that ‘the loss of control felt horrible’ as she also candidly discussed how she used to choreograph sex because she felt such shame over her body growing up. 

Back in 2018, Melissa – who played Imogen Pascoe in the ITV soap – was devastated when intimate photos of her were leaked online and posted to a disability porn website which led to her being cruelly trolled. 

Tough: Coronation Street's Melissa Johns discussed the horrifying incident of when her intimate photos were leaked online during Friday's Loose Women

Tough: Coronation Street’s Melissa Johns discussed the horrifying incident of when her intimate photos were leaked online during Friday’s Loose Women

Speaking to the panel, Melissa revealed that she ‘cried and cried and cried’ for the first few hours after she found out and then ‘forced herself’ to go on the website and look.

She said: ‘I did really, really ugly crying and when I went on there and I read the way my body had been ripped apart, I had never read anything as disgusting as what I had read,’ she bravely explained.

‘Leading up to that, I loathed my body, I hated my body growing up, I didn’t see anyone like me on TV and when you’re a teenager, you have hang ups anyway but when you have a limb difference and a body difference, or any disability, you spend so much of your life making sure that everyone around you is okay with the way you look.

‘That led to some really scary moments growing up. I just loathed this body I was given. I used to go to dates and I’d know what to wear and how to stand and how to sit and how to look in photos.’

Upset: The soap star, 32, - who was born with one arm - said that she'the loss of control felt horrible' (pictured earlier this week)

Upset: The soap star, 32, – who was born with one arm – said that she ‘the loss of control felt horrible’ (pictured earlier this week) 

‘It’s your body in its purest form is on the internet for everyone one to see. That loss of control was really horrible, it was a feeling that didn’t sit right with me. 

‘I felt like I needed some sort of control over this. I would choreograph sex so that my arm wouldn’t be seen.’

Speaking about her one woman show Snatched, Melissa continued: ‘Through Snatched we explore all of the stories, like I’ve got myself into some really ridiculous situations, I used to choreograph sex so that my arm wouldn’t be seen.’

Snatched is described as a story where ‘a young disabled woman with a history of body dysmorphia comes to terms with her body becoming public property’.

Chat show: Back in 2018, Melissa - who played Imogen Pascoe in the ITV soap - was devastated when intimate photos of her were leaked online and posted to a disability porn website which led to her being cruelly trolled

Chat show: Back in 2018, Melissa – who played Imogen Pascoe in the ITV soap – was devastated when intimate photos of her were leaked online and posted to a disability porn website which led to her being cruelly trolled

The synopsis adds: ‘This humorous and revealing show displays no remorse in championing female sexuality, fighting body shaming and the taboo of sex and disability. 

‘Snatched is a fast-paced, uplifting one woman show accompanied by a live 90’s/00’s soundtrack.’

Melissa has previously described how she spent years ‘despising’ her body, after receiving vile comments from complete strangers.

‘I was in a nightclub and was dancing with this lad, we were getting on well and he asked my friend if he could have my number, I didn’t see him for the rest of the night,’ she recalled.

Hurt: Speaking to the panel, Melissa revealed that she'cried and cried and cried' for the first few hours after she found out and then'forced herself' to go on the website and look

Hurt: Speaking to the panel, Melissa revealed that she ‘cried and cried and cried’ for the first few hours after she found out and then ‘forced herself’ to go on the website and look

‘The next morning, I woke up with so many missed calls and voicemails and was so excited that I had butterflies in my tummy.

‘I listened to them and he said things like, ‘You manipulative little b****, how dare you trick me’, ‘Freaks like you don’t deserve to be alive’ and a splurge of not very nice things.’

She added: ‘When I was 19, a girl said something that stuck with me for years: ‘YOU have a boyfriend? Really? Well how does he feel about having to have sex with you?’

‘This feeling of ugliness and disgust resonated with me throughout my teens and early twenties.

Star: Since finding fame on Coronation Street, Melissa went on to star in the pandemic drama Life (pictured)

Star: Since finding fame on Coronation Street, Melissa went on to star in the pandemic drama Life (pictured) 

‘It resulted in me despising my body and loathing the way I looked every time I saw myself in the mirror or in photos.

‘I saw everyone else around me as this perfectly cut, sparkly little gem. And then there was me. This uncut, grey stone that got in the way. Hating my body because of my disability was draining.’

However, Melissa said she was able to change how she felt about her body after seeing Charlize Theron star in Mad Max: Fury Road.

‘It took up so much energy and at 25, after years of despising the body I was given, I decided I had to change the way I felt about myself,’ she explained.

‘A few years ago, I watched Mad Max at the cinema. Charlize Theron played a character with one arm.

‘Seeing this strong, sexy, bad ass woman with one arm on the screen made me feel so unbelievably empowered that as we left the cinema, for the first time in so long, I took my cardigan off, I gestured with both of my arms, I didn’t hide away.

‘I was showing off my body. Because I knew that the majority of people in that cinema had looked at Charlize Theron’s character and had seen what I saw.;

Melissa continued: ‘I had to work hard to undo all of this negativity I had created around my image. That took about two years. But it was so worth it. I love my disability and body difference. I wouldn’t have it any other way.’

Difficulties: Melissa has previously described how she spent years'despising' her body, after receiving vile comments from complete strangers

Difficulties: Melissa has previously described how she spent years ‘despising’ her body, after receiving vile comments from complete strangers

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